Why?

why do I have to always deal with this pain?
It never stops. It is always the same.
I try to get better, try to get better with everybody, with myself.
After all these years, it is not going to stop.
You cannot listen. I cannot listen.
Soon I will be gone.
Don't come back for me, I want you to know
Deep inside my heart, deep inside myself.
I will be glad to go, and let you, let everyone be.